Oh my god I have 2 days left before the competition!!!!! That is insane. I started carb loading today and actually got to have oats this morning (plain oats with egg whites, 1 splenda and cinnamon, but still 🙂 ) They were surprisingly sweet. I think my taste buds have adjusted to no sugar, so having high sugar things like honey, maple syrup and chocolate on the day of the competition will be interesting.
Today I have to drink 6-8 litres of water… challenge accepted! I am already past 2L and it’s 11 am. I got this! Tomorrow however, I am having as little water as possible 😦 That will be hard since I normally drink 3-4L of water per day.
Some of you may have noticed a slightly whiny note, perhaps verging on upset in my last few posts. I was not having a good time! This week has been really hard, let no one tell you that the peak week process is easy, because it sure as heck is not! My brain is not functioning properly at all and that is extremely upsetting, plus my body is just physically exhausted. I, however, got through my last workout yesterday (by employing the tips I talked about yesterday 🙂 ) and have not cheated even a little teensy bit on my diet. So I am pretty proud of myself!
In an attempt to get out of my slump I made a list in the post yesterday of the things I am excited about vs. worried about for the upcoming show. Writing those things down actually made me feel a lot better and it reminded me that you really can choose your mood (to some extent). I am still feeling underfed and my brain is still not working, but a couple of days ago I was just wishing the show would be over already so I could go feed my brain and body! Yesterday I thought to myself – I have worked for 10 months to get here… why in the world am I wishing it away?
I have made a decision to be excited, to be happy, to look forward to this show and own that stage. I might not win, I might not place, but I’ll be damned if I don’t enjoy every second I can of this process.
I met up with Norvic last night, the trainer that has been helping me through peak week, and ran through my walk and poses. He corrected a few things and reminded me to let my personality show on stage. I have to make the judges remember me. He also really helped my confidence by telling me 1) the water weight is coming off nicely 2) I am looking depleted enough and can start carb loading and 3) he thinks I will rock (as long as I remember to keep smiling, chest out, shoulders back, bum “perched” – his words).
As of right now, the meal after the show is no longer what I’m looking forward to. I am looking forward to the show itself and showing everyone that I have earned a spot on that stage. I am ready for Mayhem!